The Many Paths – Part 2: My Journey

In my last post, I wrote about different paths, but to keep things concise, I didn’t dive into my own much. As I reflected on it, I realized there was more to share: so here’s part two, with the focus on my path.

I grew up in a Christian household, my father was a pastor—but we weren’t as religious as you might imagine. I never felt a real sense of belonging in church, and by the time I was 13, I stopped going altogether. Religion, spirituality, or anything remotely connected to those topics held no interest for me. I was fully immersed in what you might call "regular life."

That all changed when I was about 24. I became seriously ill, and in that state: lying there in agony with nothing but my thoughts—life felt unbearably pointless. The suffering was undeniable, and I couldn’t distract myself from it any longer. That’s when a search began.

At first, I turned to religion and therapeutic methods. While both offered some relief, neither provided the deeper answers I was looking for. A few years later, I came across shadow work, and that marked a turning point. I committed to it fully—sometimes spending up to eight hours a day on the practice. The effects were undeniable. Long-buried emotions and patterns that had felt stuck for years began to dissolve simply by being seen and felt. As layers fell away, insights emerged, and deeper material naturally came up to be processed.

Over time, this practice became second nature, both easier and lighter. As insights into the non-dual nature of reality unfolded, the entire process grew even more fluid. Yet, the paradox is that while integration and liberation seem like an ongoing "process," they’re also, in a way, illusory. 

My path has been a gradual one—an unfolding over time—rather than a sudden breakthrough followed by years of integration.

If there’s a takeaway from my experience, it’s that your path doesn't always seem linear or easy—but staying open to exploration can lead to profound shifts. Whether your path is gradual or sudden, real transformation comes from being willing to face what’s within and allowing it to be seen.

There’s so much more I could share, but in the spirit of keeping things brief, I’ll save that for another time.

Thanks for reading.